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I want my America back…

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My life has been one awesome win after another.  If you want to meet someone made of Teflon, look no further than me.  I am an only child, I laugh at everything, and I honestly believe I can do anything.  Hell, I play three instruments and I’ve won awards for each one.  I’ve got a lovely liberal arts degree written in Latin, and a Juris Doctor.  I like to think of it as fucking over my cousins, one accomplishment at a time.  However, I have recently come to shocking realization that some people do not see Queen Shit when they look at me.  They see something I previously would not have considered, they just see my race.

I was born at the very end of 1979, by that I mean I was a month and a few days old at the dawn of the 80’s.  I think I was born just a bit too late to experience any of the real social changes in America.  I grew up during the time of excess and hair bands.  I was seven when Guns ‘n’ Roses hit the scene.  Yes, seven!  By the time the 90’s rolled around I was completely in love with Alice in Chains and oddly SWV.  Race and cultural constructs weren’t on my radar.  I was busy listening to “Weak” and “Them Bones.”

So I grew up, went to a women’s college and became very involved in the Political discourse.  Looking back on that time, I was so passionate about making the world a better place.  I wanted so badly to have some impact.  I joined the Young Democrats, I interned on a Congressional Campaign, and I even started the first ACLU Campus Organization in Georgia.  My parents thought it was cute, I don’t think the administration at my College thought it was cute at all.  Whatever, I was down for the cause, whatever that cause may have been.

Fast forward a few years, my fire is not nearly as hot.  I took a trip to Law School.  If you are an idealist I warn you now, KEEP YOUR ASS OUT OF LAW SCHOOL.  The most important lesson you learn is that humanity will never bend to the will of the right and just.  Law School has one purpose, to teach you how to think.  They don’t spend time teaching you how to be a lawyer; they spend time teaching you how to think like a lawyer.  My personal experience has taught me that thinking like a lawyer and being an idealist is an exercise in constant disappointment.  Before I was trained to “think like a lawyer” the plight of the disenfranchised bothered me, but I always saw opportunity in the prospect of righting the wrongs and generally being your brother’s keeper.  I was raised to believe that you are responsible for the plight of everyman and if you can do something to help, you should.

And then there was Obama.  This man came out swinging!  He offered up the very things I believed in and said we can have them all.  Yes we can!  I was in rapture.  Then he won!  The whole nation was riding high on the Obama.  Yes “the” Obama.  He was such an awesome power he deserves an article in front of his name.  I cried my eyes out on January 20th, nobody could talk to me.  All of a sudden, the impossible seemed possible.

The following months were fantastic.  The Obama could do anything.  What’s that, the economy is still falling apart, Obama can fix it.  Obama can fix anything.  Word on the street, Obama fixed global warming by rigging a giant air conditioner.  He can do anything and make you feel good helping him do it.  Brother can you spare a $5 is no longer for crackheads looking to score a rock, it’s for sending money to whatever the hell keeps emailing me because I am helping The Obama!  Yes sir, America the beautiful indeed.  Then Obama says it’s time to fix health care.

When the first rumblings about health care started trickling down, I thought, oh these haters need to chill, everybody can’t hitch a ride to Cuba with Michael Moore.  I figured, like everything else, The Obama would come through with gangbusters and in two weeks the whole country would be rollin’ like me with an Aetna PPO plan.  Yep, Obama handles another one.  THAT IS NOT WHAT HAPPENED!

The sane news channels started carrying clips of Glenn Beck crying.  Well he’s crazy so that’s not a big deal.  But then I start hearing about Tea Party Protesters and they are having a huge Tea Party on April 15th.  I wondered what on earth these people were protesting.  Didn’t The Obama tell these people he was only raising taxes for the top five percent of the population? I can see by the footage that none of these people are in that top five percent.  People that have more money that most nations don’t do protests.

I noticed something about these tea partiers, they had signs, but the signs had nothing to do with taxes.  They said Obama is a Socialist, and Obama is a communist and finally Obama is a Nazi Communist Socialist Fascist.  This led me to the conclusion that perhaps these people are confused.  Surely they took Civics in High School.  But the problem with these signs and complaints is that they continued.  By the Summer, not only are these people having a fit about taxes, they changed Medicare for all into Death Panels, yelling at members of congress, and the McCarthy Blacklist.

I decided to do my own investigation by going to a town hall.  For me, this was the summer of the day dress.  I can’t explain it, but I wanted to wear dresses all of the time.  So I slap on a particularly awesome yellow fifties style day dress, a cardigan and I head out to a town hall.  When I arrived there were cops and news trucks everywhere.  Well of course there were, CNN had already started a Saturday segment called Town Hall Raw.  I guess other people were interested too.  Never underestimate the power of nosey people to go above and beyond to get their information!

I stood in line forever, just waiting to get in the door.  Then finally the line starts moving.  I go into the Gym at Mundy’s Mill High School, take a seat and make sure my Blackberry has service so I can tweet the hell out of what is sure to be awesome.  Before Rep. David Scott even took the stage, the crazy started.  Organizing for America was busy handing out “Support Health Care Reform” signs and luckily I got one just as they ran out.  Then I hear a rumble.  Apparently a man one row in front of me had taken one of these precious signs and then ripped it up.  An obviously angry woman yelled at him and he started screaming “Sit down!  I can do what I want, this is still America!”

That was the beginning, no more than three minutes later I hear, “Look at that uppity nigger over there.”  I look up, because I’d never really heard someone say Nigger with venom outside of Hip Hop or a movie about the Civil Rights Movement.  This elderly white man and his shrill wife were looking dead at me.  I mean they were looking at me so hard that I thought they were going to attack.  Then the very nice former Marine sitting behind me jumped up and screamed, “What?!  Aww hell naw, who do these Po’ Cracka’s think they are talking to.”  Luckily his wife was right next to him and she yelled to me, “grab him!” So she took one arm and I took the other.  He calmed down, and so did I, but a month later I’m still disturbed.

Up until my town hall adventure, I’d never heard someone called a nigger or been called one myself.  I made it 29 years in the world believing that people weren’t racists anymore.  If they were they were in their 90’s at this point and surely on their way to hell.  So now I’m left with the question, what is this disharmony in America truly about?  After seeing the anger and rage up close, I’m left with two conclusions.

The first conclusion is that the gullible and vulnerable have been preyed upon by those who wish to regain their majority.  These people get their information from one source which has an interest in the undermining of the current administration.  They are being told that The Obama is not fantastic; he’s the communist Truman promised to keep at bay.  He’s the face of the Bolshevik Army your parents told you would eat your babies and to top it all off, he’s Black.  Surprisingly, there are places in America where races do not coexist.  They are still segregated and therefore someone who is from the other is mysterious and not to be trusted.

The second conclusion is that these same gullible and vulnerable people are afraid and when people are afraid they cling to their most basic beliefs.  One of those beliefs is that an African American cannot be the president of the United States without simultaneously taking from them and giving to his own race.  I believe this current upswing in what looks like racism is more related to fear.  These people are afraid of losing something that they don’t have.  Sadly, they are the very people who would benefit from the reforms.

Finally, I am still an idealist which is likely why I am always disappointed.  I am convinced that the majority of these people are not racists.  I believe that these protests have given those who do hold racism near and dear to their hearts a forum and with that forum they have taken the lead.  Now all that the world is seeing is the worst that America has to offer.  The vile and the deplorable have taken over the debate in what should have been a nationwide exercise in civil discourse.  So, to quote one of the angry town hall participants, I want my America back.


Written by emokidsloveme

September 16, 2009 at 4:12 AM

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  1. I’m naive enough to be continually amazed at how racist America is. I mean, I knew there were racists, and I knew they were bad, but it took Obama’s winning to bring them raging out of the woodwork, to highlight how truly virulent and prevalent it really is. I though there weren’t as many of them as there seem to be.

    I thought America had somehow moved past some great huge barrier when we elected Obama. Maybe we did, but the haters are coalescing. They aren’t the fringe, which is what is so scary.

    Your post is fabulous. Thank you. If you delete it, I’ll be very pissed.


    September 16, 2009 at 4:30 AM

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  3. Absolutely. I am with you 100% and so are millions of other people. But, like you, I am overwhelmed by the craziness that seems to have gotten hold of the ignorant and afraid. What the hell is going on? Fear is the root of hate, but their damn emperor has no clothes and somehow I have to believe that we still live in a civil society and that some point the voices of reason will prevail. After 8 years of Bush madness, I am heartsick for a turn to honesty, civility, common sense and a shared understanding that we’re all in this together. Thanks for the great column. Don’t despair…and neither will I.


    September 16, 2009 at 4:49 AM

  4. Couldn’t agree more with Page and jillinski. It’s a sad state our country is in, but truth be told the views so ignorantly being expressed have always been there, just usually better hidden. It does worry me (and frighten me!) that these people (and I use the term loosely) seem to have no shame in how they are acting, and how unabashedly proud they seem to be in their ridiculously low-brow behavior. And even more worrisome is that I think they actually BELIEVE the BS they’re being spoon-fed by the likes of Fox talking (blathering) heads and racist, narrow-minded GOP folks!

    As I mentioned to you earlier via Twitter, I say you wear the gorgeous yellow day dress (I’m assuming it’s gorgeous ;)) proudly as you fly about the country (well, at least the blogosphere ;)) doing your Superhero duties! 🙂

    I look forward to reading more from you.

    SoCal Muchacha

    September 16, 2009 at 1:44 AM

  5. Fantastic first outing. I’m always stunned by the racism/bias in this country. And lately at the extreme ignorance. I knew I lived in a state and area full of retarded hillbillies. These days, I think we all do. I’m stunned someone as clearly above the fray as you was singled out for prejudice.

    We will all keep fighting. My best friend in junior high was a lovely, black girl named Lois. Still a friend, just grown apart from the usual time and different interests. But I remember when I first saw her house and realized that all the African-Americans in Amarillo, TX lived in a completely different part of the city. Even though her parents were middle class. Her father worked in city government, her mother a librarian. But here was a lovely little house of theirs, sitting in this remote area of town. With dogs running in packs in the streets and a sense of inner city that could be found nowhere else in Amarillo.

    I’m still affected by the separation I saw back in the mid-70s. I know that now, African-American families live whereever they wish in Amarillo. But I will never forget thinking that my beautfil friend, Lois didn’t deserve to be hidden in that neighborhood when she was essentially just like me.


    September 16, 2009 at 2:18 AM

  6. First of I’m glad you know how fortunate you were growing up. Good parenting will do that!

    Agreed that many people are using the healthcare reform as a guise. Any one with eyes can see the undercurrent has every thing to do with fear and insecurity.

    I had my eyes opened permanently during the O.J. Simpson trial. To this day I’m in disbelief about many of the things I heard from people of all shades and class.

    I changed the way I see people for sure, but in the end it was a positive change. I prefer to know who I’m dealing with.


    September 16, 2009 at 2:34 AM

  7. Typo amnesty for the above please 😉


    September 16, 2009 at 2:35 AM

  8. This is your first post? Wonderful.

    jim voorhies

    September 16, 2009 at 9:24 AM

    • Yep, my very first post. Thank you!


      September 16, 2009 at 11:44 AM

  9. America is a country that is extremely uncomfortable talking about race. During the election, nervous folks would say this isn’t the time to talk about it, don’t rock the boat, just get him in office, that’s the important thing.

    It seems like we’re always trying to smooth over issues of race, to frame the problem as being guys in hoods burning crosses instead of looking inside and examining what we fear and why.

    There needs to be some way to get us all as a nation to understand, without shaming ourselves or becoming defensive, the roots of our fears without sweeping it under a rug to fester and pollute.

    My mother always told me right before a child is to make a big leap forward in development, there is a period of regression, frustration, crankiness and just plain misery for the child and parent. My hope is that this is what our country is going through and we’ll come out a more mature and wise nation.


    September 16, 2009 at 9:32 AM

    • A voice of commonsense and reason. I, too, believe that our country is going through convulsions over this very big change…perhaps one big scarey Temper Tantrum. We can HOPE.

      Alamar Fernandez

      September 19, 2009 at 10:03 PM

  10. Great post!
    I want my America back, too. The America where middle-class people and families had a chance to move up with hard work and some luck. The one where the poorer people and families had a chance to move up with hard work and some luck. THIS America is a meritocracy, where people die for lack of money for health insurance, or lack of good health insurance. Where the top 1% of wealth holders hold more wealth than 90% of EVERYONE else combined. Where employees are constrained from using their numbers to bargain for themselves but Walmart uses it’s dominance in the market to force small business to sell their product at whatever price Walmart sets, and actively works against their employees.
    About racism, I think it is so closely entwined with fear that we can’t distinguish which is the motive behind these horrible displays. Some humans who feel they are on the losing end will look to blame someone else, without regard to where that blame properly belongs. It gets all mixed up in their (small) minds and they end up screaming about any old thing.
    I am disgusted and discouraged by the behavior we’ve been seeing but I think that when we come out the other side of this, we will have made another huge leap in progress to a more egalitarian society. Keep the faith! as they used to say.


    September 16, 2009 at 10:14 AM

  11. The beauty of playing the race card is that no one can disagree that Americans still hold racist beliefs. The truth is that we all do to some degree – whether they’re overtly expressed like the hateful couple you experienced at the town hall meeting, or acknowledged by taking an alternate route on a poorly-lit street if one’s path is going to cross with a group of young men – who happen to be black. The latter is something I’ve done and something I would do again.

    Black folks voted for Obama in the 90% range – is there some portion of inherent racism in that number? Of course there is. Who wouldn’t take the opportunity to vote for a black man if the opportunity to do so is something you’ve been waiting on and working for? Maybe some voted for the man as the result of an idea similar to this one: I can vote for a black man because I’m looking beyond the color of his skin. Newsflash: those reasons are racist.

    But wait. . . if you’re going to respond that voting for Obama transcends race and painting his electoral demographic with the overly broad brush of proactive racism is inappropriate, then you must also agree that painting policy protesters with the broad brush of racism is equally inappropriate to the point of absurdity. Playing the race card is odious, because it further cheapens the dialogue to the point of suppression. Suppression. Not good.

    Despite your unfortunate personal experience, you seem to acknowledge that “these people” aren’t all racist in the rest of your narrative, but instead, they’re ignorant and fearful. They might even be “clinging” to what they know, right? Let’s step away from the talking points for a minute, shall we?

    The fact is, a majority of American voters in 2008 rejected a white man. There was and is a lot of adulation for the black man. Some of that adulation is absolute blind faith and those voters stand by their vote. Some of those voters now realize that they disagree with the elected black man’s policies. Some voters who voted for the white man did so because his opponent was black, sure. But the vast majority of folks who voted for the white man rejected the platform on which the black man ran, as well as a lack of meaningful experience. And, they’re objecting now to what they perceive as disastrous foreign policy, ruinous fiscal policy, and more government intervention in daily life. That in no way resembles racism.

    This debate really doesn’t boil down to racism at all. It’s a strawman obscuring the real question, and on what side of it you personally fall: Do you believe that government is the best option to provide for an individual’s economic and personal needs?

    Up ’til now your life has been one self-congratulatory “awesome win after another” and you’re “Queen Shit” of it all, but then you have one crappy, inappropriate exchange with idiots, and all of a sudden you’re mourning the America you knew? Someone tore up a sign and called you a name. Someone else in this comment stream called her neighbors “retarded hillbillies.” People who are legitimately protesting against stuff they don’t want rammed through without appropriate protocols are suddenly racists and Nazis.

    You know who you are and what you stand for. Grow a set. Your America is still here. It’s everyone’s.

    Betsy Wuebker

    September 16, 2009 at 11:03 AM

    • Betsy, I think you are way off in left field, well actually right field. You say “People who are legitimately protesting against stuff they don’t want rammed through without appropriate protocols are suddenly racists and Nazis.” The only people being called Nazis are Obama and his supporters. The right wing is the one using the hateful, crazy language. Obviously you left a comment to continue your right wing agenda of “pull yourself up by your bootstraps, Ayn Rand says only hard-working rich people are valuable” BS.

      I have seen lots of the protest signs and heard lots of the right wing protestors and by and large they are racist. They are scared of the black President and they aren’t going to shut up about it. You are being extremely naive to pretend otherwise.

      And I DO live by retarded hillbillies. I live in Arkansas. It’s full of red state fools like you.


      September 16, 2009 at 11:20 AM

    • Emo sounds exactly like someone who knows who she is and what she stands for. What an odd way to end your post. It takes a lot of courage to speak up, especially with fringe nuts like you ready to deny someone their personal and gut-wrenching truth.

      Emo doesn’t need to grow anything. YOU, however, need to grow a soul, and a healthy dose of shame.

      Jill K.

      September 16, 2009 at 11:46 AM

    • I know of no one who has stated that ‘all’ or even ‘most’ of the protesters are racists. Why would you assert such a thing unless you hope to deflect attention from the issue of those that ARE behaving in a racist way? I hope you come back to explain who is “painting policy protesters with the broad brush of racism”.

      That a majority of America elected a man who is also black does not then give people license to behave however they want and not be called out on it. And I believe I’ve read that a majority of white people did NOT vote for him, so you’ve got another red-herring in your argument.

      Then there’s these facts:
      1)at one time, black voters favored Hillary Clinton
      by 40%
      2) black voters always vote for the dem by something
      like 84%
      3)whites vote for the white candidate in huge
      percentages and no one calls that racism. Why not?

      What Rush, Beck, Hannity are doing is something they won’t be able to get back. If we don’t pay attention, we can’t deal with the problem. That is something liberals and democrats do. Acknowledge problems and look for solutions. Sticking your head in the sand and pretending a problem doesn’t exist is what conservatives and republicans do. By looking around at the state of things, we can see which is the better way to go.


      September 16, 2009 at 12:27 PM

    • Betsy,
      I just wanted to say that you have a problem when it comes to understanding how racism works. Maybe an evening in Atlanta over on Auburn Avenue will allow you to experience racism. When you are called everything under the sun other than your name you’ll get the idea. Being racist is about the lowest thing a person can be and I am very thankful that our President is above all of the foolish behavior of white people who are still trying to engage in a debate about an election that they lost. I think Emokidsloveme has done everything she was supposed to do and more. Pray that your kid does as well. Of course Emo did well because her parents insured that she would by teaching her to treat everyone as you would want to be treated yourself.

      As far as the country rejecting a white man and voting for Obama you need to get real. There were plenty of white men and one white woman to select from. Obama may not have had an abundance of white people to vote for him but hey, he had enough and that, my dear, is all that matters.


      September 16, 2009 at 9:35 PM

    • Betsy, Betsy, Betsevery. Whatever occurred in your life to cause your comprehension of life and other people be so completely limited? Your absorption of fact, and ultimately reliance on regurgitation of simplistic ideological pap is so pathetically typical of your ilk. Let us look at what you’ve said and why it is logically and factually incorrect.

      1. Emo is demonstratively more intelligent and learned than you. Just saying.

      2. 90% of Blacks voted for Obama not because he is Black, ergo, because they are racist, but more likely because he represented their hope, aspirations, and preferences. Basically, it was a rejection of the GOP, which has not supported minority rights since the 1860’s, has primarily supported rich white men to the detriment of anyone middle or lower class, and frankly, brought the country to the brink of disaster in the past 8 years. Is that too difficult for you to assimilate? Too bad. It’s the truth.

      Since you are a racist, you don’t understand that, nor accept the fact, that minorities are far more complex, not a monolith, and capable of sophisticated social and political analysis. Essentially, that is why Conservatism will not attract Blacks, Latinos or Asians in great numbers. Conservatism offers little to these groups.

      3. Why did I say you are a racist? Besides your reprehensible stereotyping here, you actually dismissed Emo’s thoughtful article by claiming that she employed the “race card”. No, Emo spoke the inconvenient truth. YOU threw in the race card in a lame attempt at self defense. What is it? Did she hit you too close to the bone, so you felt you must defend yourself? Tsk. Such a misplaced sense of entitlement. This world is large enough, opportunities are sufficiently abundant that fear of additional groups entering the workplace, government, or business arena will not diminish your own opportunities.

      4. The root of Racism root is in fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear based on what you’ve been told. Fear based on limited experience. My advice? Get over it, already.

      4. The assessment that the majority of teabaggers are racist isn’t broad-brushed. The verbal commentary, as well as the nonverbal displays, i.e. signs, effigies, posters, cartoons, and graphics, have been entirely racist in intent. Blatantly so. Are we supposed to overlook this? The media spokesmen, Rush Limbaugh, Glenn Beck, Dick Armey, and others, have been overtly racist. Are we supposed to overlook this because you and others with similar arguments attempt to shame us into not noticing what is plainly obvious? It’s not happening.

      5. You say: “But the vast majority of folks who voted for the white man rejected the platform on which the black man ran, as well as a lack of meaningful experience. And, they’re objecting now to what they perceive as disastrous foreign policy, ruinous fiscal policy, and more government intervention in daily life. That in no way resembles racism.”

      Oh, sure it does. People voted for Obama not as a rejection of “the white man”. (How offensive do you choose to be, anyway?) They rejected the platorm on which McCain ran, they rejected the platform that was a continuation of the failed Bush policies, They rejected the persistent lies promulgated by the neocons and the GOP. They rejected the hypocrisies inherent in the GOP policies, including the claim that it is fiscally responsible, promoted sound foreign policies, and total and intrusion into our private lives…and deaths…to the extent it came close to destroying the U.S. Constitution, and certainly rendered 9 of the first Amendments irrelevant.

      Now, that is the truth of the matter. Frankly, I’m rather tired of these Republican lies. Fiscal responsibility? Fact is, the Stimulus Bill has actually stopped the recession, and definitely avoided the impending depression resulting from 15 years of counterproductive GOP policies. The U.S. is now safer due to Obama’s policies. Even our allies hated the U.S. following GOP disastrous policies. Independent analysis recently concurred that the U.S. is actually safer now under Obama’s policies, as well as more actual terrorists have been apprehended in the past 8 months than in Bush’s 8 years.

      Would you like to try that again? With facts, this time?

      6. Emo may not have faced, or recognized overt racism until recently. I am older. I recognize it when I see it. The Teabaggers, if not racists themselves, have been manipulated by racists. The 9/12 protesters, as well as the Town Hall protesters, and those brandishing firearms at Obama’s appearances (with absolutely no articulated reasons why), were organized by blatant racists. None of these instances arose from grassroots origins, but were all generated by corporate lobbyists, funded by corporate organizations. Everything you’ve written here wouldn’t surprise me if it wasn’t directed by one of those sources using bots to search out any blogs expressing negative opinions about Teabaggers, Town Halls, and/or 9/12 attendees. No matter. I don’t really care one way or the other. Bottom line, your assessment is simply wrong.

      BTW, get a clue. The “America” that you want is rejected by the majority of Americans, not because a Black man is involved, but because he offered inclusiveness and progress, rather than selfishness, increased poverty, and backwards, restrictive thinking. Today, the majority of Americans, in the same proportions as in November, still reject what the Teabaggers demand. And lest you hadn’t noticed, the “proper protocol” is being followed. It is called Presidential General Elections. Your side lost. It is still losing, whether or not you like it.

      Go back to school and take a Civics Class. The 10th grade should do it.

      Now I leave Emo’s Blog back to Emo.


      September 20, 2009 at 6:26 AM

  12. Ignore the haterade, Emo. It’s from someone who thinks they are some sort of personal guru a la Deepak Chopra.(check out our “friend” Betsy’s “blog”)

    Oh, and Betsy? Ho about you grow a set and realize that the tones that overshadow any policy differences are distinctly racist. To ignore this plain fact is to live a sad, delusional world. I pity you.


    September 16, 2009 at 11:16 AM

  13. If anyone’s got a set, it’s @emokidsloveme. This is a personal story of one woman’s experience and it was courageous of her to share it. Plenty of us felt like we grew up in a pretty colorblind society (at least compared to our parents) and to see this kind of hate being thrown around. It’s shocking. And sad. America is and will be better than it’s worst citizens. This is a time for us to all learn, grow and try to respect differing opinions… in a respectful manner.

    Tammy Gordon

    September 16, 2009 at 11:18 AM

  14. “These people are afraid of losing something that they don’t have. Sadly, they are the very people who would benefit from the reforms.”

    And there’s the rub. The corpulent corporate interests are eating this all up. They are the ones who will benefit from this clash. Remember, Dr. King was killed when he moved to unite black and white sanitation workers.

    Great post.

    Carmen D.

    September 16, 2009 at 11:44 AM

  15. I don’t believe you. There are elements of this story that are, simply, not the way things happen. An older white man just decided to pick you out of a crowd and call you an “uppity nigger?” Nope, confrontations like that don’t happen that way.

    Barring real evidence, I’m saying this was fabricated to fit a stereotype. Who’s the racist?

    Jay Barnett

    September 16, 2009 at 12:39 PM

    • You.


      September 16, 2009 at 12:49 PM

    • He was talking about me to his wife. This occurred right after the tearing up of the sign hoopla. I don’t know or believe that he meant for me to hear him but I did and so did the people behind me. It also didn’t help that when I looked up they were staring straight at me looking extra pissed off.

      Where did I say there was a confrontation. If anything I halted a confrontation.

      But, if you don’t believe me, that is fine. Overall the Town Hall was awesome. The crowd was mostly pro-reform.


      September 16, 2009 at 12:52 PM

    • I want evidence that you are really Jay Barnett, otherwise, I don’t believe you either. I believe you are a racist troll.

      Now, how does it feel to be doubted?

      Common decency = it’s a good thing.


      September 16, 2009 at 3:31 PM

  16. Wow! This is an awesome, well-written post. Having grown up and still live in California and in a large city, I forget that ignorant people (raised by ignorant people) are still out there and are as racist as ever.

    If I had more than two thumbs (I wouldn’t tell you because then I would be afraid you’d think I was some 5 thumbed freak), then this would be a five-thumbs up post!


    Margaret (Nanny Goats)

    September 16, 2009 at 1:11 PM

  17. Great post. My own town hall meeting experience (as a white woman) reminded me of a 70s kkk meeting I infiltrated with the Yippies, so I am not at all surprised: Town hall meeting in Travelers Rest, SC

    Betsy, if there is a race card, everyone plays it, since everyone has a race… not just black people. And you have just played your WHITE race card.

    Now, please stop using that shitty expression. Thanks.


    September 16, 2009 at 3:26 PM

  18. Emokidsloveme is a member of Generation X. It is possible that her parents were Baby Boomers who had experienced racism but made certain that she did not.

    Why would white people pick Emokidsloveme out of a crowd to attack? Well, Emo is different. She was not looking or acting like the way black women act. See, these people think that all black women look like they stepped out of a hip-hop video or they just got out of jail. Emokidslove me was sitting alone. She was busy not paying them any attention. She was the perfect target. Nobody to help her fight off two white people. Why would she lie? If I remember correctly, the woman was the same person who was holding COMMON SENSE by Glenn Bleck in her hand as if it were a guide to the good life. She did tweet pictures of this woman.

    I think it is truly hard for some white people and even some black people to realize that racism isn’t always an in your face thing. Sometimes it is the look you get when you answer a question right in class. Sometimes it you being the only black person in an entire class. Sometimes it is a person moving when you sit down next to them. Sometimes racism is someone calling you an uppity nigger!


    September 16, 2009 at 5:06 PM

  19. Great post. The thing I don’t get from these people is the sense of persecution the emanate. They act like all of the sudden they’re going to start losing all these rights that nobody has even mentioned. I would wonder where they were when their rights actually were being trampled on during the previous administration, but I expect they were too busy stomping on Dixie Chicks CDs to notice.

    Alexander Burns

    September 16, 2009 at 6:12 PM

  20. This was a powerful read.

    Thank you for writing it…


    September 17, 2009 at 12:03 AM

  21. Believe it or not, most of us are fighting for Our Liberty which includes You. It has nothing to do
    with Obama the man (Although I do believe he has Narcissistic tendencies) but more with the people ‘he’ chooses to surround himself with, very frightening are the words these folks have spoken
    and the papers they have written against the Constitution of the United States.

    Has anyone read the HC Bill or whatever name they
    are calling it these days? I have and will continue
    to do so, for it is an absolute intrusion into my life and yours, you just don’t know it yet. Any changes they say they will do are not relevant to
    the facts, the Bill in it’s entirety must be stopped.
    Here’s a link you may find enlightening if not frightening about this ‘Bill’ that We the People are trying to stop~ http://bit.ly/43d8Ar (From the U.S. Chamber of Commerce).

    There is so much more at stake I could speak of, it is mind boggling. So much that has been done in the past, but America has awakened and for that I am grateful.

    BTW~ That was a great read @emokidsloveme!


    September 17, 2009 at 10:57 AM

  22. There is absolutely no excuse for something like that happening to you. I couldn’t agree with you more on race and disagree with you more on politics. Great first post!

  23. Without getting into the actual reform debate, please take note that the individual who was standing up for you used a racial term in response. Both were wrong in their use of a derogatory term to describe a person based on the color of thier skin. Society isn’t colorblind but you can make sure you don’t perpetuate bias of any kind based on a persons ethnicity, race, sex, or any other arbitrary criteria.

    I would also caution you to stay open to dissenting opinion. If you can listen and learn from those you disagree with, it’s possible that they can learn from you as well.

    I hope this helps.


    September 18, 2009 at 7:19 AM

  24. Like you, Emo, the hate is sickening to me..all of it. It’s not the populist anger that bothers me b/c I too am fed up w/govt representing corporations and not people. It’s not even the crazies; they’ve always been out there. It’s the rest…so easily fooled, so willing to believe the worst of our POTUS.

    Yeah, it is discouraging alright.

    I am older than you but have only once witnessed overt racism. When Obama secured the nomination Michelle and the kids were on the TV..an older woman I had known for years was watching and said: “I can’t believe those ” pickaninnies” will be playing on the White House lawn.” It stunned me.

    But, here’s the thing…months later when her husband was ill I found myself in her home again..the TV was on with the now FLOTUS and her children on screen. We all watched and then her husband said: she likes them now. Turns out after a lifetime of ignorance she fell in love with the Obamas…not their politics: them, America’s First Family.

    I appreciate your sharing your story. As much as it disturbs and depresses me what I see, I have been thinking how it must feel to people of color. The world is changing like an earthquake moving very slowly..but when it settles..I think we’ll all be better for it. In the meantime, I remind myself that there are more people like us than not.

    Cape Cod Gurl

    September 19, 2009 at 7:48 PM

  25. I loved the chronological presentation of your evolving feelings and reactions to The Obama political evolution in our currently “mad” culture.
    It is so right on. As I said on twitter that I was checking out your lovely avatar and found that plus a brilliant mind, in my opinion. Perhaps all that ‘lawyer’ training is the basis? I am glad I did.
    I look forward to reading more of your MIND, in the future.

    Alamar Fernandez

    September 19, 2009 at 8:28 PM

  26. Hi Emokidsloveme! I wanted to tell you that this post was fabulous…don’t even remember what link I followed to get here, but I started following your Twitter after I read it and have been enjoying your tweets ever since. Thanks!


    September 29, 2009 at 8:42 PM

  27. Just remember – old people like the couple that yelled an epithet at you are going to be DEAD soon. Nothing makes people hateful and full of fear than reckoning with their own mortality, and the mortality of a dominant cultural hegemony that has justified their ignorance.

    It hurts, really.

    But don’t forget, they’ll be dead soon. The world is very shortly going to be a very different place, and it already is.

    Love your blog, and LOVE your tweets 🙂


    November 6, 2009 at 12:37 PM

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